All I can really say.. is wow. just wow. I really am the luckiest girl in the world :) (and maybe also one of the dumbest for not noticing/suspecting anything at all…:P).
The night of 4/23, we had rehearsal until 11, then went to the Wa until 11:30. I walked back into the room planning to take a shower, quietly celebrate with my roommate by just counting down to midnight and taking a picture, and then getting back to my thesis work. However, as we were taking our midnight photo (that actually wasn’t saved because my memory card was in my computer… lol oops?), I heard a knock at the door. At this point of course, I knew what was going on :P haha, they were so punctual. I was so ridiculously happyyyy ^_^. My fail “speech” consisted of approximately two sentences. One of which was me saying that they do not want me to talk… and then tearing up as I thanked them and said that I would miss everyone >_< oops again? Gah I’m really lucky to have such wonderful friends. Anyway, this was already so much more than I could ever ask for. I wrote a note thanking them all, thinking that they had already revealed all their plans :P
Woke up early on my birthday to thesis and struggled so so so much in my classes. Oh, someone in my photo class shared the same birthday! haha. After class though, I treated the Triple 8ers to Twist like I did back during my freshman year, this time to thank everyone for making my past 4 years so special :).
Had dinner with my family at Mediterra afterwards. Rescheduled what I thought was going to be a roommate dinner for this family dinner actually… teeheee. Dinner was really nice and we had this amazing flourless chocolate cake haha. Went home to just relax and spend time with the family (completely forgetting about my group meeting for EGR495…) and took pictures at 10:06pm. ^_^
So that roommate dinner… We had rehearsal again that ran over until 7. On the walk back, one of my roommates asked what dress she should wear for dinner… so naturally I was totally excited about dressing up and played along quiet nicely :P. As we were walking to dinner, I noticed another new restaurant and totally considered asking to change venues hahahaa. That would’ve been bad. Walking in to Ming’s Court… I noticed one of our other friends sitting at a table and had just started telling my roommates she was here and saying that we should go say hi! when I realized that… she wasn’t the only one of our friends there :P. Walking into the room where they were sitting, I saw that basically all of Triple 8 was at this “roommate dinner”… it was actually. amazing.
Like I said… I have the bestest friends……. I’ll really miss this place next year… can’t believe I’ll have to leave everyone so soon :(
Was previously kind of bummed out that I wasn’t able to finish my thesis before my birthday as I had hoped/planned haha… but yea… I’m so happy, I don’t even feel at all stressed working on it :P
I feel terrible right now. I’ve wasted basically an entire day doing… nothing… which normally would be fine… but my parents aren’t home right now. If I weren’t going to be working on thesis/didn’t need to be on campus, I should’ve gone home to be with my sister. How could I be so carefree when I know she needs me?
I pride myself on my ability to really think about others before myself, for being considerate to a degree that most people don’t think of… and it was through my little sister that I was able to become like this. Because of her I was able to learn how blissfully happy I could be giving up yummy treats to watch her enjoy them or how desparately helpless I could feel when she was sick… wishing every second that I could take her place so she wouldn’t have to suffer. As corny as it sounds, she really taught me how to love someone and she will forever be the most precious person in my life.
I realized how much she would need me these few days and I barely put any effort into trying to go home earlier… just thought going home for the weekend like usual was fine. I don’t have classes Thursdays/Fridays, but need to be in NYC for class tomorrow. Nonetheless, I definitely could’ve gone home and just had my aunt drop me off at the train station tomorrow. I guess I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to meet up with the other people in the class beforehand… but for my sister, something as small as that shouldn’t even count as a sacrifice. I can’t believe I even thought of that.
I feel like a miserable sister. Especially given how much we’ve both struggled over the past few months… I should’ve tried much harder to be home more frequently for her and yet I just was scared… and tried to hide.
04.04.12… sigh.
People are finishing their theses… last year’s seniors starting to plan their trips back for reunions… gahh graduation is really approaching too quickly. too many lasts. too much to do. too much that I will miss. too little time…
Everything I do nowadays feels like a “last”… it really makes me appreciate everything so much more. heh.
I’m not sure how much longer I can pretend to be strong…
- sit up on the roof of some building
- climb Grad Tower
- have dinner again with Alex + Ruth at Rocky <3 (at 5pm when the dining hall opens hehe)
Forbes vegetarian dinner (3.7.12)- Prospect 11 (12?…lol Campus.)
- go to D-Bar
bartending class? (maybe) (3.31.12)- take pictures at Cotsen (even though we aren’t allowed to…)
- picnic at Battlefield Park
- roommate night :)
go running along Carnegie (3.10.12)- Triple 8 kayaking trip
- make Triple 8 slideshow :)
- check out Butler’s recording studio
- vocal/piano cover of something with Steve (I Won’t Give Up? Phantom of the Opera? Disney? Hallelujah?)
- take walk along Carnegie Lake with Catherine :)
- photo walk around campus
- go to playground around Lover’s Lane with Catherine :P
- Harry Potter Workout (http://a4.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/423768_10150680930473322_113692773321_9115751_1483520901_n.jpg) with Catherine ^_^
- take hs friends to the street :)
tour Forbes (3.28.12)stargaze on hammocks in Forbes backyard (3.28.12)- take pictures in the Forbes backyard
- take a walk on the golf course
- make something at Red Green Blue
- to be continued…
Restaurants off-campus to visit
- Melting Pot
- Max Brenner’s
- Ippudo
- Per Se…. maybe…
went to a workshop led by my professor for EGR495 about finding startup ideas. i found it actually quite useful :)
anyway. it was in rocky classroom. lalala freshmen year birthday party was next door as were triple 8 deliberations this year teehee. haven’t been up campus in quite awhile… definitely felt very nostalgic heh. it will always be my home :)
whoa. tumblr changed their icons.
I’ve been both looking forward to and fearing this year since I first found my place in college…
I still can’t believe that my last Triple 8 show is over… I think prior to it, I still felt like I had a lot of time left here. I still belonged and still had time. Triple 8 is really all I’ve ever truly cared about at Princeton. Anyone who really knows me knows that I can put academics aside very easily for friends (maybe a bit too easily :P). Triple 8 was the family of friends that I most willingly made sacrifices for. When I auditioned freshmen year, I was more looking to find a place to fit in and not so much needing to dance heh… and I certainly found way more than I was looking for… I decided then and there that I would give everything and anything to Triple 8. Our class was really small freshmen year and gradually most of my previously non-Triple 8 friends also joined, making it even easier to be the only social group I hung out with.
The show this year was absolutely amazing and there is nothing I could ever be more proud of. I just feel like I’ve given everything I can to the company and am now… done and very much useless; I have nothing left to give. Triple 8 is really a group of wonderful people and I’m sad that I won’t have more time here to get to know each and every person in the company (especially our lovely little newbies). Sigh this is difficult to write…
I’ve also always been very afraid of competition; I’m definitely not someone I would consider a natural leader. I never liked confrontation and was such a pushover coming into college. Leadership was not my thing. However, I’ve chosen to be on board since sophomore year and actually helped out quite a bit freshman year as well… Triple 8 had given me so much at a time when I needed it most… and I wanted to be able to give as much back as I could. Heh. Anyone who has been on board with me knows that I’m not quiet… if I have an opinion, it will be heard. But President?! That was so not me back in high school… and I realized it was probably a lot because there was never something I cared enough about to fight for…
I remember last year when rewriting lyrics to the Graduation Song for the Colonial/Triple 8 seniors and putting together the slideshow, I really feared my senior year. I mostly hung out with people from that class… I was afraid to be all alone for my last year and was definitely not looking forward to it… Definitely wished I had followed through with advanced standing and graduated with them. I was so sure their graduation would be more difficult than my own…… so much has changed since…
This past week has been rather difficult. Since the show is over, the idea of graduation has very quickly just taken over my mind. Been thinking back on all my experiences here… and how much I am not willing to give it up just yet… I guess I have to accept the little time I have left though and make the most of it. My only remaining goal now (other than to finish my thesis of course) is to get to know the Triple 8ers better. Thinking about next year, all I have been trying to plan is when I’ll be able to come back haha. Triple 8 show & reunions hopefully :)
Heh, on a slightly different note, but not really… it is amusing how much of my life I think of in terms of Triple 8. Recently had to take a personality test for class and when reading the description of my supposed Myers Briggs type (ESFJ), I naturally related every trait to some Triple 8 situation I’ve encountered. lol.
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